One of the things that I find the most interesting about being a consultant is that you start new jobs (without being fired or quitting) pretty regularly. Inherently the act of starting over at a new company, with a new culture, and new human counterparts is always a little stressful. Even though it can be a stressful time, I have also found it to be a blessing.
What is the blessing in starting over? Well, it challenges and stretches me to believe in myself. To know that every time I’ve started somewhere new, I didn’t know the culture, the humans, the geography (if I’m traveling) or even the details of the work I’d be doing. Those facts eventually changed and I learned, adapted and was successful in each endeavor. I keep proving to myself that there is nothing I can’t learn, handle, or google… to meet my goals.
When I’m approaching a transition to a new client, I often end up in this cycle of stress > gratitude > acceptance > stress > gratitude… etc. I find myself being my biggest cheerleader and critic, in a healthy way… not in a multiple personality kind of way. I challenge myself to remember my awesomeness, but allow for some stress/apprehensiveness as well because in a managed fashion it allows me to be better prepared when I do start.
The biggest “bonus” of this cycle is that I have very little fear of ending a contract. I have faith that everything will work out and that I will find the work I need to find (if necessary) and I hold myself capable of staying employed with the right companies, the right projects and the right people… at the right time.
The super secret bonus to flexing my “believing in myself” muscles is that it doesn’t just stop with my employment. These exercises leak out into the other areas of my life and allow me to face uncertainty and change in my personal life with a little more calm and steadiness that otherwise.
All that to say that I appreciate the challenges that this career has sent my way and the growth I’ve experienced because of it. I am pretty darn proud of myself and the person I’m becoming every day.