And oh what a year it has been!
On Love ~
On January 9th of this year, Jason and I got engaged. He asked if I would be his (forever) and I happily agreed! Two weeks later I found my wedding dress. Shortly there-after we set a date and snagged our wedding venue. My Aunt graciously agreed to take our wedding photos. We found a great local DJ and a local Caterer.
I was talking to my sister the other night and we were talking about how hard it is to find love. Not that love hides in murky corners in the Bronx, it is the searching for it that can feel like an epic odyssey at times. It boiled down to “it (looking for love) sucks until it doesn’t (when you find love)”. It took me a long time (30 years as a point in fact) to find the man for me. Okay, so I wasn’t actually looking when I was in diapers, but you get what I mean.
I remember phone conversations with my Mom where I asked if I had an ugly wart on the back of my head because I just could not find someone (anyone) to be with. The saying goes something like, “love will come when you aren’t looking for it”. I tried like I wasn’t looking, really… really… really hard. Which, of course meant I was in fact looking.
Finding Jason was awesome, just thinking of all the stars that had to align in order for us to meet makes me happy. It hasn’t always been easy, it hasn’t always been pretty, but it has always been worth it. Never a single regret. Never a doubt about a future. And that is a pretty awesome :)
On Career ~
I got a promotion. I became a salaried employee for the first time in my life. I worked upwards of 80 hours some weeks. As a company, we upgraded to a new software and implemented it faster than any other customer had. I found myself in a new department, new boss and new cubicle. I feel like I’m at a pivotal point in my career. I’ve found a niche, I can honestly call myself an expert at what I do. I’ve never felt so competent and valuable. It’s a great feeling. I’m excited to see where these skills take me in my career.
My challenge is to learn how to keep perspective on what is important. How to communicate professionally (instead of personally) and how to be taken seriously as a professional/expert in my area. As my Dad likes to remind me (and other coworkers), I like to talk people to death. I feel like if I just assault them with words, they will eventually bend to my will and agree with me. Apparently I can be a bit of a word bully when it comes to email. I want to be someone that people want to work with, want to strategize with and trust. In order to do those things, I have to mature a bit in my communications styles at work. Which is admittedly hard… but I’ll get there!
On Family ~
We lost an Aunt. The first of my Dad’s siblings to leave this physical world. It was a tough time for everyone. It is never (never ever) easy to see your Dad cry. I believe it really gave everyone a sharp reminder of how valuable and short, precious and beautiful life is. My nieces are as beautiful as ever. My sister is raising them to be quite the little (chocolate-loving) ladies! I love them.
I’m thankful for the family in my life. We are all such beautiful souls. I don’t question being loved, whole-heartedly and without judgment. Becoming and Aunt myself really opened my eyes to the love my Aunts have for me. It gave me a brief glimpse into motherhood and the knowledge that even though I love my aunts, the love OF an Aunt (much like that of a mother) is so permanent, real and sweet.
Our little family is growing, learning and loving every day. Jason’s son is 11 years old now. He is damn smart, funny and full of energy. Reminds me of the notes my parents used to get: “Ingrid (Vincent) is very nice and smart, if only she/he would sit in their seat and be quiet” :) Jason will turn the big 4-0 in March! I’ll turn 33 in April and have found my 30’s to be some of the great years of my life so far (and I’ve got more to go!).
On happiness ~
As the days, moments and memories pass, I find it more and more apparent that happiness doesn’t just happen in peoples lives. It is a result of someone who makes conscious efforts in their lives to set themselves up for random showers of happiness. If you practice positivity, kindness, faith, sincerity and do so proactively… happiness will be easier to find, quantify and hold on to. I think striving to be a better person is a good thing, and something I pride myself on… however I am also finding that somewhere in there I need to stop and be okay with who I am in that moment. Otherwise I feel like I’m constantly getting there… and not enjoying being there.
On 2014 ~
I’m excited for a new year. I’m not as excited about the next few months of winter, layers and layers of clothes and snow. I’m excited for the planning of the wedding to ramp up. I’m excited to reach a moment of calm at work (maybe March?). I’m excited for a honeymoon/trip of a lifetime. I’m excited for a couple of good friend’s weddings this year also. I’m hoping to eat slightly less chocolate. I’m excited for spring, flowers, birthdays, laughter, life… just everything.
So, cheers to everything and finding our happiness!